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As i was getting in the court room,i had no confidence at all.I was so tired and very weak.Immagine i stayed in the cello for almost twenty four months while my conviction keeps on bieng postponed.
I saw a good number of people coming to my conviction and i also saw my wife Judith and my son Jeremy.As i knew today is going to be the day of either mourning or happiness,i went to my place and sit down looking at my wife and my son.They were crying and i couldnt help myself from crying.
Then came the Judge and went through the whole case and said...As i went through this case from the beggining to the end,i wouldlike to tell mr Kadekade that hi is free and innocent.I jumped from where i was to the flow.all i wanted was my family...i missed them for almost two years.
and i was innocent and free.
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My name is Joshua Kadekade..The first born in our family and i grew up in Kagera region in Tanzania.I went to school in Kimila primary school also in kagera rular areas and got my secondary education in Iringa region.
I completed my first degree in University of Dar es salaam and now im working as a financial analist in Mbeya region in Tanzania.I enjoy my work and im also enjoying the Mbeya climate.
One day when i was coming from work,i met a woman on my way home.She was carring a big bag and it seems she was coming from the market.I felt sory and i stopped my car and picked her up.She said Her name is Judith and she is a teacher at a certain primary school.Suddenly everybody was quite and i asked her where should i go?
As she was getting off the car i asked her if we could exchange telephone numbers and she agreed.Nomally i work froma monday to friday,saturday and sunday i ussually have days off.So i ussually do my house and the rest of the time i either visit friends or play football.
Its abeautiful saturday despite ao the showers but its a wonderful day.I feel so lonely and i think i should call Judith and see if she could come around for some drinks or dinner.
I called Judith and she had an excuse,she had to take care of the guests visited her family on that day but she promised to come around or we can meet in town on sunday.I will give you a call ...she said
I was sitting on my living room watching music from abig csreen i bought in Dar es salaam but my mind was not on the music at all.I was thinking of the woman i saw once,she was beautiful i couldnt help myself from thinking about her.
I thought tommorow i must tell her that i love her and if she refuse or if she has a boyfriend is going to be shame to me.i will suffer alot im telling you..i thought and realize a friend was knocking the door.
We arranged to meet at five in the evening but around three i was arleady on my way to town.I even forgot that i have to water my plants but they are still surviving anyway.I walked around the town for sometimes and then i went to the destination...where im going to meet the queen of my life.
She came on time and received her with my two hands...what would like to drink,eat or take home?i asked her and she said she will have any soft drink.I ordered a bottle of fanta for her nad we talked alot about anything interesting.
Judith you are so beautiful....i told her and laughed and said ..thank you Joshua.I think i will be right to love you and it will be not polite to tell you this time.I know we have known each other for a short time but i couldnt stop my mind from thinking and giving solutions on the questions that you can answer.
Im very sorry if i will be hurting or causing pain to you in anyway but i have to tell you what makes me loose two kilograms everyday.Im using most of my time to think how will i let you know that i love you but i end up saying i love you and you ussually dont hear coz most of the time im just alone.So please Judith,understand me and its you to make me hapy or cause great pain in my heart.I said
She kept quite listening carefully and said nothing for almost fifteen minutes,then she said .....Joshua,my parents always told me to wait before i decided to have a boyfriend...and now tht im working ..my mom think its the right moment to have one...but i think i dont know you that much and you dont know me that much well as well.Let us leave this issue pending for somedays and i will answer you when i think its the right moment to do so.she said.
I didnt expect such a disappointing answer but i agreed with her that we should give ourselves time.But since then we were calling each other atleast four to five times a day and we became ggod friends.I think she was observing my footsteps and she got more informationa about me from her friends and relatived eho knew me.
I remember it was monday 29th when she called me early in the morning and said she wouldlike to meet me in the evening.I knew im going to be either the owner of her or the enermy of her because it was not normal for her to call me in that time.I agreed and that day the hours were going so sowly i couldnt fasten them.
I met Judith that day and we had a couple of drinks...it was unussual for her to spend more than two hours at my home place.She helped me with dishes and washings.Then she told me...Im very happy today Joshua...I love you and now you can show me your love Boy.I want you but be carefull...i never went to bed with a man since i was born..im virgin and i want you to be the first and the last.Promise me that you will never betray our relationship.
Do you know how it feels when someone wins a huge amount of money from either lotto or whatever?I find myself as a worrior.If its happiness this one is now too much.I took Judith,carried her and kisses her on her lips,then we were zero distance standing and we kissed alot that day.Then she told me..i told my mom tha we have a party at school so i will sleep here.
What a surprise?she will sleep here and today after longtime waiting im going to have sex with her..ohhhhh GOD i said..im ging to eat and drink the fruit juice of my pain i got from thinking of her..she is mine...she is mine ..i said.
After a year i went to Judith`s parents and they agreed that i could marry thier daughter,what a wonderfull information was that.I arranged everything with my friends and everything went on well and perfect.
We made a big party on our marriage ceremony and a good number of people were invited to join and see us getting married.Was an historical event and and i will never forget that day.
After honey moon, i went back to work and met the new boss.He was so troublesome and never friendly.I remember one occasion He sent me to Rungwe to do research and behind He started following my wife.My wife called and explained each and everything but i didnt want to take things in rush.
I finished my research and went back to office and as if it was not enough he sent me again in rular areas to do the same thing.In my office,i worked with my best friend Thomas,he was like my brother because we used to share most of our thing together and in need i was there and he was there most of the time when i needed him.
Tom once called me and said..brother,the big potato is not a good person at all.I saw him today going to your home place and he was carring some staffs.I thing there is something wrong between your wife and him.I know Tom and my wife told me about Himand i think i will wait,i dont want to rush doing things that i will reglet later.I said.
This Boss,had an affair with his scretary at work,He had three children and he was married to a woman from Chagga region.The woman never knew that her husband has several wemen and several children out of their marriage.
One day when i was at home,my wife told me everything that my boss told her.She said he told her to leave me and He will take care of her. And many things that were like poison to our relationship.
But as i said Judith is seriously in love with me,she was strong and she kept on resisting the offers and presents from my Boss and we were discussing on what to do.He is my boss and he fire me.Should i tell him to stop disturbing my wife?I asked myself one day evening.
I decided to tell my Boss the truth and it was as follows...it was monday morning,i went to his office and got in without even knocking the door.I was fed up by his calls to my house seeking for my every second he had.Good morning i said and i think he realized what am i going to tell him and he looked shocked.
Im sorry im fed up with your calls,dont call my wife please she is my wife and not yours,would be happy if i will be calling your wife every half an hour?And dont come to my home place unless im there.What exactly do you find from my wife?I was so angry and i didnt wait for him to argue so i left the office.
Was a boring day that monday,the boss had a terrible mood and was barking like a dog.My friend Tom asked me what happened because the boss never looked me on my eyes...i said i told him never to follow my wife again .But you might loose your job Joshua...i dont mind Tom, i can lose my Job but nevr my education.If you support these kind of people next day they will come and authorize you house.
After three weeks i realized that my boss stopped making phone calls and he never came home again and to my that was the biggest archievement.But im sure he was not happy and i was preparing for anything,i knew the revange might be bitter but i had to wait for it so i said come what may.
One evening,i went out with my wife.I was with Tom and his wife as well.We spent sometimes together and i suggested to go dancing.My wife said she wont go and Toms wife said as well she is tired and they will both sleep at Toms place.
We went to dance and we enjoyed alot that day,there were too many people dancing around and around and around 5 in the morning we were on our way home.Let us leave the ladies to sleep,i have the key let us go to my place till later then i will me with you ti pick Judith.
My God what happened?We were surprising as soon as we approached my house.The windows were broken and the doors were open.The pieces of papers were lying around and they were written...today you won but tommorow is our turn.we will make sure that we will kill you.
I called the police and showed them whatever happened.They promised to make a followup and know what were the intension of these people.I went back to office next morning and i realized that my boss was surprised to see me.I went to his office and greated him then i left.
As if it was not enough,i came back home and i didnt find my wife,but i saw a piece of paper written...TWO CHICES...YOUR SOUL OR YOU WIFE.I didnt understand this message and i reported to the police and they were active this time finding the subjects.
Inspector Idi and his crew took the responcibilties and i promised my heart to do whatever i can to find my wife and rescue her.I just need four weeks holiday,i cant work under these circumstances ...i told my boss and i didnt wait for his reply i just filled in the holiday forms and left.
Tom was beside me every second he had and i told him let me start my investigation.Kimaya is the cycle mechaniker just accross road to my house,one day he saw me walkind out of my house and he called me.You know brother,i saw someone very dangerous to your place one day.He came with a car parked here.He said
He said this man is used by rich people to destroy peace and security of the town and he can kill you in a minute.Where does he lives...i asked,He lives in the forest and he has a big crew.He is very dangerous and the police knows him very well but they dont know where to start confronting him.
I called inspector Idi and told him about what i heard,He said it might be true or false and they will work on what i have heard.Its a wekk now since i told Mr I di and nothing happened.It nice to have the government like ours because every citizen has to join the army for a year.I thought im strong enough because during my childhood i also attended karate courses and im still very fit.
I got more information about this Man who is used to do killings and murder innocents.One night i took my knife and pistol.I drove through the forest up to a certain point and then i left the car there.I walked slowly and carefully to the direction i didnt know.Suddenly i saw a car going further to the direction i took,i followed the car and i was running very fast so that i see where is the end destination of the car.
The car didnt go far..just 900 metres the car stopped and two big men got off.They looked around and then took the lid that covers one part of the land that seems to be theres is residence in it.Ànd then they went inside and the car drove off.
I stayed where i was for further twenty minutes,and then i stared crawlling towards the area.Then i saw five strong men coming out looking around and then a crew of five more men got out as well with my wife on their hands.I got angry,i wanted to go and get my wife but i knew i will loose my life and my wife.
Inspector Idi was not sleeping,He was working hard and harder to get to know where is my wife.He worked along side with seven inspectors and i didnt know that they observed my in the forest and the saw each and everything.
The five men holding my wife went a bit close to where i was lying,and my wife saw me there and she wanted to shout but i gave her the sign to keep quite.Then one of the men turned and saw me there lying.as he was going to take me,several bullets explosions were heard and everybody were running.they took my wife with never left her behind.
One man was shot on the leg and felt down,we took him to hospital and he was under strong security of the police.You were right Joshua,they are the one..but dont worry we will make sure we demolish this crew.Im sure wont be easy but we will have to.
I decided to be very careful even in town because i knew i have enermies and they will be taking a close look at me.So i reduced my movements during the day and i was going out of my house for a serious need.
Its around 3 in the afternoon and im lying on my sofa...memories of my wife with lots of things that we did together covers my mind.there is nothing else to think about.Nothing else to worry about but my lovely wife Judith.
Today i must talk to inspector Idi and see what to do.Please Joshua,whatever you want to do just let us know for security reasons.We have a speacial operation taking place today in the forest and we have organized three troops,We will be going there in different time and we will see what we can do to get you wife.said inspector Idi.I will come with you Inspector..i said but Inspector knew that even if he says no,i will simply come so He agreed that i should come with them.
Was around 3early in the morning when we left the town.The troops were arranged in a way that we will go there and do a sudden invasion.W went there with great attention,the first troop met an opposition from the gunned men who were suprvising the area after they knew police will come anytime.
We walked slowly going to the direction that we heard fights ...carefully we approched the area and i thought we were not far from the underground tunnel that were used by these Gangs to plan for their massacre.So i told inspector Iddi to be careful because we are in the dangerous zone.
Then we heard bullets fights for almost fifteen minutes,we were shocked and didnt know where are our members..then we got a call from Jimmy who also was with telling us they shot two gunned men who were securing the area before entering to the cave that leads you to the tunnel.
The working conditions in general in my office changed and there were no peace around people and everybody was unhappy with the Boss who didnt want to share his views with his workers.My holiday was over and i went back to work but i still had alot to think about my wife and her condition in the hands of these dangerous people.
I did my job like always and this time i didnt want to hear anything from my Boss.Luckly he didnt bother to send me to any of the meetings and He took most of my responcibilities himself.So we were not in good terms and everybody was aware of that.
How long am i going to be driven by this Boss?..i asked myself one day after bieng tired of waiting for the police to help me rescue my wife.And how long will i be living in great risks like this?While i was thinking and questioning myself,i heard a car comming.Then i switched off my radio and went to the dark room quickly.
I heard two people whispering and approaching the door,then i took my pistol and stayed in great attention.Then they tried to open the door and was not closed so they got inn so easily.Then they went from one room to another looking after me.I went to the guests room and hide on top of the couboard and from there i could perfectly saw them coming to that room.
One gunned ma got inn that room..i wanted to shoot him but i thought i should wait maybe the second one will also come in so i can shoot both.
When i got in the guest room and hide on the couboard,my id felt on the bed and this man saw it and called the other one and said...He must have stayed in this room..Then i shot them on their hands and the pistols felt down and i went and tied them with the loop and called the police.
Three days Later i decided not to wait for so long coz i never know exactly what happens to my wife.So i decided to go to my Boss and i met his wife and two children watching film.I asked if the Boss is at home and he came and took me to his private room and showed me a gun on my head saying..he will kill me if i will keep on disturbing him.
I knew he couldnt kill me at his place but i was not so sure,i noticed that the pistol was attached to an equipment that makes it noiseless.Then i realized that i can loose my life at any time so i decided to reply politely to him.
What do you want from me ..asked my Boss..I want my wife back..that is inhumanity i said and suddenly i had my gun on his head as he was wondering how confident was i.I told him to put his gun down and i took it and i told him i will use your own gun to kill you if you wont bring my wife back.
At the biggining He tought i was making fun,but i took my knife and cut him left arm and he was terribly bleading.Wait ..dont kill me..i will tell you where your wife is..said my bosss but i didnt care i cut him again just above the former wound and i said..i know where my wife is ...i just want my wife here in one hour,otherwise i will kill you..im serious.
Ok replied and said but dont cut me anymore please,when i realized that he was no more powerful,i decided to give more wound so that He could remember me always in his life time so i cutted him several times and both hands.I heard him crying loud and louder then his wife came and i also arrested him.
Call the Gangs now and tell the to bring wife here in half an hour ..otherwise i will kill you and your wife..then i narrated to his wife what her husband did for the past year and she was very soory and crying but i didnt care.Then i called captain Iddi to prepare the police so that when these people brings my wife,they should also be caught.
My Boss told the Boss of the Gangs to bring my wife,and the bOss promised to bring her himself and take the cash.After only five minutes the Gangs boss was there with ten people around him and they didnt see me i hid myself somrwhere watching.Then police invade the place and the whole crew were taken including my boss who was jailed ten years.
I took my wife and went back home and we had a big party to celebrate,they didnt hurt her in anyway and she was comfortably kept there.Then i went back to work as ussual and we had a new Boss and He was friendly and very charming.
I worked for the Mbeya region for more than two years and then i moved to Dar es salaam region.In Dar es salaam i met a mate who was unfriendly at work.Was Jelousy of whatever will be of profit to somebody else.Then a month after i moved to Dar es salaam i was chosen to be the Regional boss.
My life style changed co now i had good salary and i did what i could to help my workers getting better and better working conditions and better life.This was not enought to a man called Timoth,always he opposed me and he even established a group of people at work that also opposed me.So i worked under difficult condition and situations.
One day came the police at work and took me.They said i received corruption from someone that day.But i dont remember if i had a visitor that day but i was taken to cello and wait for my charge.
I remembered one day i decided to install a securita camera in my office and at home for my own security.Especially after i had chain of troubles,i didnt want to be in such situations again.
So the Camera recorded my daily movement and actions as well as sounds and conversations.Time was also recorded in that camera.So i was hundred perfect sure that this will rescue me from these accusations.
The case was mentioned and i was nit allowed to say anything...several times and i stayed in cello for two years.But i asked my lawyer to find that camera and show it to the Judge and it worked.
Then the camera was brought during the Trial one day and it was obviously that i was innocent.But the accussers said tzhey have more witness to give before the court so i had to spend more days in cello.
I believe in God and i do pray sometimes,maybe frequently when i have difficulties and when i feel im wrong.In the Cello i used to pray hard,when i say hard that means i prayed so often and one day i had a dream that my wife is getting married to another Man.And so many dreams that gave me more doubts and worries.
The day came when my trial was read out and i appered for the 30th time in the coart,i was very wek and tired.A good number of people were there to hear and see what will be decided by th Judge and my Fanily was also there.
Im Innocent...yes i am............
I left the building with family and went back home.The next three weeks i took holiday and relax at home with my family trying to recover and i also took several test against several illness.
After a month,i realized that my wife was pregnant,i thought i came from Cello with new strength and new speed.I took care of my wife and the my Son Jeremy.I also went back to work and continued with work as normal.
Nine month later my Wife gave birth to a Wonderful child.The child was very white and so sweet,with curry hair and narrow lips like a European child.I didnt want to judge wheather she is my child or not because when Jeremy looked same way as this preety little Girl.
After several months My wife started doing things that were unussual,She came home sometimes late and drunk.She was not respective at all to me.She started wearing expensive dtuffs like chains and rings.
I remember one day she came home around quarter to one mid night.She asked me if i have cooked for her and i didnt replied because i knew she was doing something that was strange.I knew she was drunk so i didnt want fight with her.
My friend and my felow workers were afraid of letting me know the behaviour of my wife,no body said anything and i was also afraid of narrating to them what she does to me.I just kept quite and i knew she must have a boyfriend somewhere.
Jeremy,im going to work then i will come around ten to take you to school..is that ok Bro,i asked my Son one day after His mom disappered for two days.I was so lonely that day and i also had alot of feelings,my best friend Kiang came and asked me what was wrong and i told Him the facts and he was very sorry and told me the following.
May i be your friend or your enermy forever by letting you know the facts about your wife. I saw her several time with a man..do you know Mahmood?he asked and i said yes,ok then nowdays She is going out with him and everybodyx says Therez is Mahmoods daughter,Whe you were in cello,they spent sometimes together and everybody saw that.He said.
Maybe to prove what i said,let us slowly go somewhere because i saw her on my way to work with Mahmood and they were drinking beer at Miami Bar.Did she come back home lastnight?He asked again Kiang.
With my eyes open and my mouth full of salive,i saw my wife Judith kissing with Mahmood.In public,no fears and very drunk.I pretended as if im going to toilet and passed infront of them but they were not shocked at all to see me,then my wife called me and said...some more beer please ..hey you f....n waiter,bring us some beer.
I replied ok ..no problem,then i left and Kiang was very sorry for what happened.We left there and i couldnt work anymore.I went home and took Jeremy to school then went back home.Kiang came around twelve in the afternoon and He comforted me by giving me courageous words and suddenly my wife came.
She was ugly and very drunk and she said nothing.She was dirty,i thing she fell down several times on her way home.i didnt panic asking her questions but i promised my heart to do something very painful to her as well.
I took my Son Jeremy to my sister and He enjoyed staying there,i knew He wont be respecting his mom when He sees her from time to time behaving like that.So i stayed alone thinking of what to do to this lady.my wife.
I decided to find a woman to comfort me,Her name was Janet,with Janet i didnt want to hide anything.Im not drinking too much alkohol but i enjoy staying with friends and have one cold and one hot somewhere.
One evening i went out with Janet and Kiang in a Chinnese restaurant,we had dinner then we went to a bar to have drinks.In the evening i asked Janet who knew the whole story of me and my wife to come home and spend the night there.She was afraid but after i had guaranteed her safety then she agreed.
We went home and my wife Judith was not there,Janet stayed with me for sometimes in the living room and we discussed several matters concerning our relationship.Suddenly Judith came and this time she was not drunk.She looked around and she kept quite.
I wonder today she didnt ask if i cooked or not,and then since i took Jeremy to my sister,she never bother to ask where is Jeremy.Its the third day i didnt see Teckla..where is she?..i sked Judith and she kept on wondering what the hell is going on.
Mahmood is married and has four children,if today Judith counts to get married to Mahmood then she is wrong and she should forget.I wonder why she decided to fall in love with a married man,I wonder why shouldnt she just wait for me,why shouldnt she even find someone convincing?
Then she asked me,who is that Joshua?then i replied hey you bar maid ..bring me coke and glas of amarula please.She thought im drunk but i said that to see her reaction.She asked again but this time she was serious and she wanted really to know.
My Girlfriend Janet,what do you say?Is she pretty? i asked.She wanted to fight with Janet but i stopped them and told Juduth,...you time is over now...go to Mahmood ,there is no space for you in this house and i dont recognize the child from today.Take what belongs to you and off you leave.
She thought i was joking,she went to the kitchen and cried a little bit then she came and sit with us.Im sorry Joshua,forgive me for what i did,its only temptations that made me do that and i swear never to do same again.
I didnt want to say anything and i gave time for the situation to change.Next morning Janet took Jeremy to her place,i wanted to see if she can manage staying with the child that doesnt belong to her.
Judith kept on going out with Mahmood despite her confesation,several times i saw her in bars and she didnt care.Then i changed the locks and keys of all doors belonging to my house.
The next morning came Judth at home,i was not there and she didnt get in.She came to my office and complained about the key to my house saying.We built the house together and she has the right to own the key.I told her to go to the court and complain for her rigts over the house.
She didnt know that in some occassions i filmed her,i did that to build evidence because i knew one day she will complain on her rights over my house as my wife.I built the house myself and i didnt want my Son Jeremy to have troubles when i wont be living anymore or in any circumstances.
The next month we devorced and i got married to Janet who at the beggining loved very much Jeremy.I remember one occassion when she punnished Jeremy for abusing her,i asked Jeremy why did he do so and he said she didnt give him food.
That was just the beggining of troubles and harrsments from Janet.
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